You Dont understand

I thought i could forget about you,
When i decided to give up on you,
since then,my life turned upside-down,
Because you're not there

I thought i could let go everything,
If i tried to avoid you everywhere,
You chased after me and did not want to let go.
I cried night after night.

I thought after the holidays,
I can face you as friend.
But when you look into my eyes,
I'm scared that I'll fall for you again.

I thought of you when i am lonely at beach,
Feeling the wind gently carressing my face,
Hearing the sound of waves
while I walked along the seaside.

I thought if i could be more determinded,
I could run away from your sight,
But I kept on waiting you to look at me,
Even a glimpse of my shadow is enough.

I thought and i thought and i thought
of all these happenings
I know it's not your fault.
For you dont know my feelings towards you.