Monday 29 September 2008

Sorry ya....

Nowadays busy with study maybe will not replying u all de msg so don angry me ya not don wan hiu u all juz wan concentrate study pmr coming soon le need study study study very very hard le so all my friends muz pray for me ya...Friends told me that prayer is useful so i hope that all of u can pray for me thx....

Sunday 28 September 2008

sao ah...

Don knw why this morning wake up feel like got mood wan study but study study until half stomachache then go toilet le after that back frm toilet like whole people no mood eh..And until now still stomach very painful don knw is gastric or wat ah make dao me no mood study de so angry...STUPID DE...SHIT SHIT..My trial maths get 72 want kill people ah left 3 math can get a le ah..........................................................................ANGRY AH ANGRY AH...............................................I so hope i don wan to knew it haiz.....sad ah......last time is science left 3 mark can get b now maths left 3 mark can get a.....HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ....

Friday 26 September 2008

A short love story..^^

He met her on a party. She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, while he so normal, nobody paid attention to him.

At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised, but due to being polite, she promised.

They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, she thought, please, let me go home.... suddenly he asked the waiter. 'would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee.'

Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red, but still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it.

She asked him curiously; why you have this hobby?

He replied: 'when I was a little boy, I was living near the sea, I like playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there'.

While saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched.

That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart.

A man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home.

Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family.

That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story.

They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets all her demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful. He was such a good person but she almost missed him!

Thanks to his salty coffee!

Then the story was just like every beautiful love story , the princess married to the prince, then they were living the happy life... And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee e, as she knew that's the way he liked it.

After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said: 'My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life lie. This was the only lie I said to you---the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead.I never thought that could be the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything.. Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth: I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste.. But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life. If I can live for the second time, still want to know you and have you for my whole life,even though I have to drink the salty coffee again'.

Her tears made the letter totally wet.Someday, someone asked her: what's the taste of salty coffee?

It's sweet. She replied.

Love is
Not 2 forget but 2 forgive,
Not 2 c but 2 understand,
Not 2 hear but 2 listen,
Not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!!

Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like,
because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.

Haha finish trial lo...

Haha finally finished trial 2night can sleep well le then tmr gonna start study again le...Wow haha juz now while waiting my bro i take some stupid pic haha...take a look...Zzzzzz^^Sorry ya i din go get honey frm you bai fei ur xin yi sorry sorry...

Been edit le..haha^^













Thursday 25 September 2008

~B3!nG back Y!n~

Yeah i being back myself not sitting exam with the brain is blank le...I find out why my brain is blank le...Haha^^Today i told dear last few days my voice was down bcz tat day competition lead them shout jia you shout too much le..Haha luckily i told her if not she kill me if i din told her i think she got angry a while juz now while i told her but her mouth say don have heart sure got de la....anyway don angry lo i will take k myself wont let myself get sick tis is my promise...^^haha...Haha make dao my voice like boy haha..My junior say my voice was cool haha..Weird haha...Wow i realise that my sis was so k about me eh, few days also i told her my voice was gone she told me go drink honey n i never drink tat kind of thing then today she told me tat she bought honey for me eh haha...Rayu her mom to buy eh me feel dao a bit paiseh ah...Actually u can not nid buy de lo jiu dou i drink a lot of water jiu can recover le don worry...^^Wow tmr last day trial lo time pass very fast le PMR around the corner le wow Form3 life gonna end very fast lo....Haha

Wednesday 24 September 2008

Happy brithday!

Sorry cannot pei u go out celebrate ur bithday but anyway i wish u have a very happy birthday!!!lao yi shui le don so naughty le hope u like i gave u de present...^^

Tuesday 23 September 2008

~My brain is blank~

haiz i don knw why 2day is the second trial le ah still the same condition while
i sit for the exam for the first day for trial my brain is blank although i study
don knw why???I wan angry ah how ah if continue like tat
this time exam sure like shit...Sis said my heart is not in study le
why will like tat le???I am finding the way to solve it oh haiz.....
I thinking of wat oh...EXAM LE should think exam thing ba...SIENZ AH..
WHAT I THINK OH??This few day so lazy to c dao my phone also it got msg or not..
I rather to throw my phone aside don k whether got battery or not...
I juz take it as my alarm clock lazy to msg oh...haiz tell me wat am i thinking...

Monday 22 September 2008

mY T3AM


I thx u very much while i am not in a good mood 2 days ago bcz the competition and nervous about it but you r the one who stay beside me and an wei me...But the person i wan it to stay beside me din give me any response and u r the 1 person i told when i am not in a good mood tat day...Tat day my mood was very very down but the next day i am so weird le warm up alone,also warming exercise doing alone bcz i bu shuang ba...but the last event i had done my best and she lose to me o.5 mark i am quite happy but also don why so happy haha...Anyway i thx my sis very much...Support me while i am in a battle,no matter what thing also always stay beside me and support me..Sorry i have make u worry and i know i am not HOPELESS~

我会好好的

我会好好的

我坐在电脑前
冷风吹啊吹
我。。。
什么都感觉不到

呆呆的坐在那儿
风把我头发吹乱了
我。。。
什么也不想知道

冷风吹啊吹
难道你能够吹走我的悲伤吗
难道你能够吹干我的眼泪吗难道我还可以像以前那么开心,那么天真吗

难道我已经变了
难道我不是以前的我了
难道我不想再受伤害了
难道我已放弃了

我悄悄的看着我的父母
十年前的他们和十年后的他们
到底改变了多少
我已不再了解他们了

到了如今我才发现
我不会像以前那么脆弱
我不会像以前那么天真
我不会像以前那么笨蛋

我跟我自己做了一个约定
不再流泪,不再责怪他人
不再想无聊的东西
我只会好好的过日子

还是深爱着你

为什么我还是放不下
我对你的感情
虽然我已放弃
我还会偶尔想念你
我很希望可以离开这个伤心地
去别的地方从新生活
但是我会在心里默默念
我深爱的还是你


~eating KFC at conference room~^^

Haha today after sch wushu team go conference and eat KFC oh mr.phang is juz for our jiang li haha...Everyone one set eat dao me so full want become fat le haha...


~MY junior~


~My bro~

~My team~



~Eating time~




~Lee ling n me~

~Bry@n n me~



~Joyce n me~


~kimberly n me~


~cheng n yin~

~W3i n Y1n~

Sunday 21 September 2008

~Ntg is impossible at least u work hard~Chung hua win at the last hehe...

Yeah we finally did it chung hua get overall champion and win riam sch haha...and i also did it i get 3 gold also din let my sis shi wang haha..thx for ur support...Wushu team u all have done ur best:)...
My junior and !

My bro and !

~Overall champion~


~Our trophy~


~CH WUSHU TEAM~


~Our trophy 2~

~boulevard time~


~My champion trophy~

Tmr i trial wish for me ya no time study jor hope my result is good...Oh ya my dear gonna birthday wish dear happy birthday first...^^









































































Saturday 20 September 2008

thx..

I won so easily give up de if not not wushugal le right haha...Anyway i juz fa xie juz now haha don worry me la...Wah 2day shout dao my throat want explode le eh like no voice le tmr still need shout erm...i will jia you de....Life still got long way to go...cannot bcz one failure give up all the thing u never try u never know so cannot give up so easily ya...CHUNG HUA JIA YOU JIA YOU...

~HOPELESS~

HOPELESS


~WU$HUg@l~hopeless~

For me this time competition is reli cannot c ah although i take 2 gold haiz din been choose but lose to me de peo been choosen u say i will bu shuang ma but if this time din been choose i gonna stop wushu forever le waste to much time le mon trial i haven study yet juz bcz want help sch to get the overall champion from now on riam win us one mark eh haiz we get 158 riam get 159
haiz tmr still got last event gonna pray hard for me ya..Thanks everyone....Reli HOPELESS..I am reli sad when i know that i wanna cry out but i stand for it din cry i juz close my eyes think tat i am hopeless le no chance le...so forget it le....

Thursday 18 September 2008

~Pray for me ya guys...~

I am having competition tmr hope i can get gold medals back my target 3gold medals so i aim for it so all of u must pray for me ya i long time din train le i think got 1 month i din train le so a bit scare my skill will not good eh but ~Wushugal~is always the best so i do my best Pray for me...God bless me!!:)

~Very Touching Story!!~

Miracles do not happen in contradiction with nature, but in contradiction with what we know about nature Saint Augustine I was an intern in pediatrics, fresh out of medical school. A lot of facts and figures were crammed into my brain, but my clinical experience was somewhat limited. But that's what it means to be an intern. One of my most memorable first patients was a young lady named Karen. She had been referred to our city hospital from a small community in North Carolina because of symptoms of weakness and anemia. I knew when I first met Karen that I was dealing with someone out of the ordinary. She was not the least intimidated by the title "Doctor" or the white coat, and she always spoke what was on her mind.

During our first interview, Karen wanted to know my credentials down to a tee, and wanted me to know that she knew that I was, indeed, "just" an intern. She was fourteen years old and full of life. Unfortunately, our evaluations revealed that she had a type of leukemia that was somewhat unusual, and not as responsive to different treatment modalities as were other types of leukemia. In fact, the prognosis for her surviving even one year was unlikely. Chemotherapy was initiated, and Karen was never shy in telling us how sick we were making her with the medicine. She never spoke in a mean way, but simply in a way that always made her feelings known. If we had difficulty with an IV she would readily point out our incompetence. However, she would just as readily forgive us and compliment us when an IV was maintained in her fragile veins on the first try. Remarkably, within three months Karen went into remission, becoming free of her disease. She continued to come in for routine chemotherapy. During those short visits, Karen and I became friends. It was almost uncanny how, during random rotations, I would turn up as her physician. Always when she would see me coming, she'd gasp, "Oh no, do I have to have Dr. Brown?" Sometimes she was kidding, sometimes she wasn't, but she always wanted me to hear her.

About a year after her original diagnosis, her disease returned. When this type of leukemia returns, it is almost impossible to regain remission because all of the therapeutic modalities have already been spent. However, once again-remarkably if not miraculously-Karen went into remission. I was now a second-year resident, a little more competent and quite a bit more attached to this family. I continued to see Karen and her family over the next year and a half. She proceeded in her high school career and remained an outspoken, fun-loving teenager. I was now in my chief residency year, spending my last month on the inpatient ward prior to completing my training. Karen came in once again with an exacerbation of her disease; she was extremely ill. There was involvement of every organ of her body, including her brain, and literally no other chemical agent to be tried. There was nothing we could do. Karen was made comfortable, given IV fluids and medication for pain. After long discussions, Karen's doctors and family decided that the goal would be to keep her comfortable and pain-free. No unnecessary heroic measures would be performed to prolong the inevitable. In fact, there were no heroic measures left. Karen soon slipped into a coma. After viewing the CT scan and seeing the diffuse brain involvement, it was easy to see why. We expected each day to be her last. Her eyes were fixed and no responsive, her breathing shallow. Her heart was still strong, as we knew it would be. However, the disease was ravaging her blood system and brain, and there was evidence of opportunistic pneumonia involving both lungs. We knew that she would soon die.

I began to have a tremendous dread of Karen dying while I was on call. I did not want to pronounce her dead. It came to the point where I hoped that her death would come on nights that I was away from the hospital because I feared that I would not be any emotional support for the family, or that I would even be able to perform my duties as a physician. This family had come to mean so much to me. It was a Wednesday night, and Karen had been in a coma for four days. I was the chief resident on call for the wards. I spoke with the family and peeked in on Karen. I noticed her breathing was very shallow and her temperature quite low. Death could be imminent. I selfishly hoped to myself that maybe she'd wait until tomorrow to die. I went about my chores until about 3:00 A.M., when I finally tried to get some sleep. At 4:00 A.M. I received a STAT page to Karen's room. This puzzled me somewhat because we were not going to make any heroic interventions. Nevertheless, I ran to her room. The nurse greeted me outside the room and grabbed my arm. "Karen wants to talk to you." I literally thought this nurse was crazy. I couldn't imagine what she was talking about-Karen was in a coma. At this point in my life, my scientific, Newtonian way of thinking ruled my thoughts, primarily because this is the approach we are trained in day in and day out in medical school. I had neglected other, more important spiritual aspects of my being, ignoring the instinct that knows what reason cannot know. I went into the room, and to my amazement, Karen was sitting up in bed.

Her mother was on the left side of the bed, her father on the right. I stood next to the father, not saying anything, not knowing what to say. Karen's eyes, which had been glazed over for four days, were now clear and sharp. She simply stated, "God has come for me. It is time for me to go." She then went around to each of us at the bedside and hugged us tightly, one at a time. These were strong hugs, hugs that I kept thinking were impossible. I could only visualize her CT scan and the severe degree of brain damage. How could this be? Then Karen lay down. But she popped back up immediately, as if she had forgotten something. She went around the bed to each of us again, with her penetrating eyes fixing our stares. No hugs this time. But her hands were strong and steady, squeezing our shoulders as she spoke. "God is here," she said. "Do you see him? Do you know him?" I was scared. Nothing in my experience could explain what was happening here. There was nothing else to say, so I mumbled, "Yes. Good-bye. Thank you." I didn't know what to say. The entire time, I kept visualizing that CT scan. Then Karen lay back down and died-or I should say, she quit breathing and her heart stopped. Her powerful spirit went on living. It was years before I could tell that story, even to my wife. I still cannot tell it without feeling overwhelming emotions. I know now that this experience is not something to be understood through the limited viewpoint of the scientific realm. We are, in essence, spiritual beings in a spiritual universe, not primarily governed by Newton's laws, but by the laws of God.

~Maybe i have make a wrong choice~

Maybe i am not suitable to make the choice but i had make it..So i cant do anything now if u all think is suitable for u all to do like this nevermind is ok juz go on i never de jiu dang i lose one friends erm...U will never how hard to hold a pose de and that is wushu club is not easy to hold it wushu want prefect no matter wat performance or competition our chung hua wushu club always want to be the best among the best...So i holding this jawatan is not easy it can interrupt my studies de..I need to care two side like coach and sch not like u holding a pose in leo club juz easy easy like tat wan do jiu do jiu do lo don wan jiu don wan lo..Mine is not same i have been quarrel many times with president because some reason and i have learn thing from him but anyway i juz can say sorry...CHUNG HUA WUSHU CLUB MEMBER JIA YOU!!!My team i want see gold medals ya as many gold medals as u all can...:)I will go watch you all tmr wakaka be prepared for it oh...haha..:)

Wednesday 17 September 2008

~I reli no choice le~So i choose the last choice..~

Sorry friends i knew i promise u guys go curtin but 我也是很难做人啊...我做中间人啊...go there also will hurt dao someone din go also will hurt dao someone haiz...I reli hard to choose so recess time i went to find bryan talk about wushu competition thing and he told me at least go to talk with the china coach and i already promise my friends gonna go curtin for leo telematch how???So while i am the way back to class i have decide it i cancel my telmatch and go for wushu competition but din join la juz go c nia...ERM if i go telmatch i don have time to study le..So i arrange my time to go on fri the wushu competition and sat gonna study..So sorry friends not i blame u all juz i hard to decide maybe my decide make u all bu shuang sorry ya...

Tuesday 16 September 2008

~对不起~

对不起,我没有参与这次的比赛。。不关你们怎样的劝我结果的答案还是一样的。不要再懒费时间再问我了...我的决定是不会再改变的!!!不关你们再怎样...把你们拿去练习吧拿一个好成绩给我不要因为没有我的存在,而把比赛比的不好...你们觉得我能陪你们到永远的一起比赛吗???不可能...现在是给你们应该学习的机会,学一下没有我的存在而好好的比赛...不要因为你跟我同一个项目而每次拿金牌的是我,而已当我参与的时后你会觉得你赢得很不光荣那是错的...这次是你们很好的机会表现下你们这几年来的苦练,表现下给中国教练看好让你们有机会被选去外面比赛..你们不是等很久了啊现在不是有机会了啊好好去吧握这次的机会...不关廉中的人这样看那你们应该要做的比他们更好...在比赛场地上不关多好的朋友都是你的对手,没有让来让去的...我对我自己走武术这条路以经死心,没有希望了!!!能的话打进国家队,那是我练武术以来的约望可是不可能会实现的我信永远都不会实现的...我要走的路以经不是武术了...武术的路不是哪么好走的我放弃了...好好的加油吧...!!!我下个星期要考试了..pray for me...很快的我要考PMR有点不想考更本就没有信心...给我信心吧...:)

Monday 15 September 2008

爱与不爱....只在于你的心....

能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎?
這個男孩太傻,為了一個不愛自己的人付出那麼多!
....現在應該很少這種人嚕..若他就在你身邊的話..記得珍惜他..
曾在女孩的記憶中,有那麼一個人。
「我現在喜歡的人,就是我前面的這位啦!」男孩大聲的說著,指著走在他前頭的女孩。
「神經病!」女孩嘀咕著,快速走開那群跟著起鬨的人群,只當男孩拿她開玩笑。
直到某一天,女孩收到了一封信。
『我是真的喜歡妳!我可以為妳做任何事,只要妳喜欢,我都會去做。
一封信就這樣,沒有署名,短短幾句話,但女孩卻知道是男孩寫的。
『那你能現在跳到馬路中央嗎? 』
女孩在信紙背面寫上這句話,託人交給男孩。
「我能!妳看著。」男孩看了內容,當著她的面衝進馬路中央。
只聽見震聾欲耳的喇叭聲、刺耳的煞車聲、巨大的碰撞聲,以及映入女孩眼簾倒在血泊中的男孩。
「我真的能為妳做任何事......」男孩的話救護車高亢的呼聲中,依舊清楚的傳入女孩耳中。
「是你們家的女兒要我們家的孩子衝進馬路中被車撞的!」「胡說!明明是你們家的兒子自己衝進去的!」
「什麼胡說!他同學說的你們不是也聽見了嗎?我們家的孩子是看了你們女兒的信才衝進去的!」
「真的是這樣嗎?」女孩的母親回頭看著女孩。
「嗯。」女孩點了頭,淚水也在她低下頭的瞬間,滴上了那張寫著男孩與她的字的信紙,似乎也企圖抹殺掉發生的事實。
「你看吧!你們要怎麼賠我兒子的人生!他再也不能打籃球了......」男孩的母親歇斯底里的大喊,哭倒在醫院冷硬的地板上。「這......」女孩的父母無言。
「我要你們的女兒陪著我的兒子,直到他再也不需要她的時候,這是你們女兒欠我們的!」男孩的父親說。
「不行!她不愛你兒子啊!你不能那麼自私!」女孩的母親不捨女孩受這種罪。
「好,我會陪著他。」在眾人驚訝的目光中,女孩答應了。

-------------------------兩年後------------------------

在公園的躺椅上,男孩和女孩靜靜的坐著,輕柔的風撫過他們疲憊的心。「為什麼喜歡我?」女孩開口了。
「能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎?喜歡上了,愛上了,就是了。」男孩淡淡的說。
「如果有一天我有喜歡的人了,你會放我走嗎?」女孩說。
「我從來沒有綁住過妳,是妳自己不放自己走的。」男孩說。
沒有交談了,只有風吹動落葉的颯颯聲。
男孩說對了,兩年前在他醒來後,他就解除了約定,但女孩始終將自己綁在男孩身邊,她愧疚,因為她的一句玩笑話,毀了男孩的夢,男孩再也不能打籃球了。
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然而故事卻不會永遠都是好結局,女孩的心給了另一個人,沒有給肯為她付出一切的男孩。
「你為什麼當初要聽我的話!你怎麼那麼笨!」女孩跪倒在地上哭泣。
「我......只是愛妳。」男孩說,伸手想將女孩扶起。
「我不要你的愛!」女孩甩開男孩的手。
「你的愛太強烈,害慘了我,你知不知道啊!你知不知道啊!」女孩歇斯底里的哭喊著。
「我......」男孩說不出話來。
「為什麼是我!為什麼是我!你為什要愛上我!我討厭你這樣!我討厭!討厭!」女孩用盡所有力氣大聲嘶吼,轉身跑了出去。
女孩的愧疚太深,她沒辦法打開心結,她因為責任而留在男孩身邊,直到她喜歡上別人了,她再也不能忍受不能和喜歡的人在一起的日子,所以她崩潰了,然而也傷了男孩的心。
女孩使勁的跑,用力的跑,淚水模糊她的視線,心中的煩亂讓她沒看對她迎面駛來的卡車......
「小心!」伴隨著警告,有人推開了她。
熟悉的碰撞聲響起,再一次,女孩回頭看,再一次的看見倒在殷紅的血泊中。
「我真的能為妳做任何事......」男孩說,嘔出一口血,昏了過去。
「不要!」女孩受不了再一次的刺激,她尖叫,
使盡所有力氣的尖叫。「太遲了,肋骨插進內臟,內出血止不住,沒救了。」
「那麼年輕就......難道真的沒辦法了嗎?」
醫院裡的人議論紛紛,句句傳入女孩的耳中,她的淚水決提,濕了她的襯衫。
如果她當初能理智一點就不會發生了,如果男孩不要愛上她就好了,她哭,哭的歇斯底里,因為這次男孩真的要離開她了,他現在只能等待死亡。
「我想妳應該進去看他......」男孩的父親說,他的悲痛清楚的寫在臉上。
「好......」女孩語不成聲,她只能不停的流淚。
女孩進了病房,見到男孩蒼白的臉,她淚水流的更兇。
「不要哭......」男孩心疼的舉手擦拭女孩的淚。
「你好傻......」女孩哭個不停。
「或許吧......這個給妳......」男孩張開緊握的手,一封沾了血的信。
「這是最後一封了,好好的看好嗎?」男孩說,眼角留下一滴淚。
「好......」女孩接下那封信,清澈的淚水滴在信封上,混著暗紅乾涸的血。
「我真的能為妳做任何事......」
這是男孩的最後一句話,他再也不能待在女孩身邊,他走了,女孩昏了過去。
『給最愛的妳:
愛上妳,多半是痛苦,我知道妳的心永遠不會交給我,可是我還是好愛好愛妳......
當初如果知道我的行為會讓妳無法自由的飛,我不會去做。
妳知道嗎?只要妳高興,我真的能為妳做任何事。
我知道當妳看這封信時,妳已經有喜歡的人了,放自己自由好嗎?

不要在強迫自己留在我身邊,我希望妳能活的快乐。

不要問我為什麼那麼傻。能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎?喜歡上了,愛上了,就是了。
我會一直守護著妳,因為妳是我最愛的人,我真的能為妳做任何事,不管過了多少年,我都不曾改變。』
女孩收起了信,她的淚水已經不再流下,男孩離開她已經五年了,五年的時光也讓她從一個年輕的女孩蛻變為成熟的女人。
女孩的命,是男孩救的,但女孩的心,自始自終都不曾落在男孩身上。
『能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎?喜歡上了,愛上了,就是了。』

在蔚藍的天空裡,風裡似乎帶來男孩的低語。

女孩不能選擇,男孩也不能選擇,谁都不能選擇。

~:(today been scolded by friend..~

Haha today while i am doing my geografi workbook,i don knw how to do ba..Ask those who knw how to do de teach me lo..After finished doing first set many wrong ba then my friends scold me lo bcz some i circle the wrong answer,and scold me "YOU GOT READ FINISHED THE QUESTION DE MA??sure no de then straight away do so funny eh...Then she doing sej after she tick i also saw that she also got many wrong then i scold her "You also din read ur question de so many wrong"then she said u got refer book i don ho...I cant say anything liao...haha..She want me to do one set without asking peo do my own then tmr she want c cannot less than 40 correct...Haha must do carefully later liao if not i goona die haha...I knw is for my own good who ask me my geo not good le...thx ya..:)

Sunday 14 September 2008

对你的承诺~^o^~

我对你的承诺会是永远的
不管我在哪里
当你需要我时
我一定会在你的身边
管我有多忙
我都会陪着你
至到你不会伤心为止
不管你是伤心
是高兴
我都会永远在你身边的...^O^

我会永远在你身边

当你需要肩膀时

我会把我的肩膀让你靠

当你需要拥抱时

我会紧紧地抱着

我不会让任何人欺负你的

不会让你掉一滴眼泪....^___^


我要你开开心心的过每一天
永远没烦恼^-^

Saturday 13 September 2008

~Reality~

Reality...
It hurts so much
It's like a physical pain
The pain that you can't explain in words

Reality...

It is always that cruel
It never contain lies
And the truth is unbearable

Reality...

Is when you cry
And nobodys there to comfort you
Or even to wipe your tears

Reality...

Is when you face the world yourself,
Is when you are alone
And when you were being abadoned by everyone

When you can't face that reality anymore

You start living in shadows, in darkness
And let the imagination feeds on you
Until one day, someone save you

You will realised that the reality that you lived in years ago

Is much more friendly than now
The despair, the coldness and the hopelessReality...



Friday

Friday...

The day that used to be my favourite day
The day that means I would have to wait before seeing you again
The day that I am happy

Friday...

The day that I'm lonely
The day that everybody ignores me
The day that you are not here

Friday...

I love you, I hate you
You played with my feelings
Yet, I still wanted to hear from you

Friday...

I want you to go, I want you to stay
My request has never been fufilled
Because Friday had to come every once a week



Until Death Do We Part

I never know that I would fall for you

And when I've realised that, I'm soaring high in the air
The feeling of love is just too powerful to describe
It lightens my days with bright sunshine

I never know that falling in love would be that wonderful

All the lies would mean nothing to me
Even the sunlight could pierce through the cold darkness
And warmed my heart like an ice cream melted during the summertime

I never thought that giving up would be that sorrowful

The despair feeling is like a sinking Titanic
My heart felt like being tied up by a heavy stone
And it pulled me down deep, into the bottomless, dark and never ending despair

Now I've thought of it and I know

For all these time I've been a fool
To love you with all my heart
But to know that you didn't care at all

And as I'm writing my feelings out everynight

As my heart is bleeding inside while I'm crying on the outsideI
would never forget about you
For you were once a person of my concern
And the one in my heart that I thought no one could've replace

As I stand here and think back

I am smiling foolishly as I thought
That you actually cared for me
And I wanted to tell you that I will always love you
Until death do we part

Wednesday 10 September 2008

WHO ARE YOU???

Please tell me who are you???i don like to guess..Maybe i call you dear bcz i thought u is my best friends so please tell me who are u if no then nvm bye then...Annoymous who are you??If i know who are u i won forgive you le...

Monday 8 September 2008

SAD SAD SAD....

wHY is always not the right time the china coach come haiz...Why he come during the time i wan PMR n i will miss this chance again to go competition outside i am very angry and sad...haiz...and no chance to correct my mistake haiz very sad eh..Is not very easy to be choosen by the china coach ah and i so hope i can been train by the china caoch i will sure be pro not bcz i wan pro but i wan to be more cool haha...no la jk jk...juz wan improve my wushu skill haiz haiz...Miss competition,miss china coach coming to miri to comment me haiz...Actually want me give up wushu is not so easy la haiz...SAD SAD SAD....I miss this chance again i miss this chance twice ah..haiz....:(

PMR

pMR cannot play lo haiz juz leave 4weeks le a bit nervous le haiz how ho???Don knw wat is the feeling when u sit in the class for PMR exam ho haha cannot think le haha..nvm la i will work hard no matter how haha....

Sunday 7 September 2008

~Wu$hug@l~




~For my friends~


For my jie jie de...^^
















Saturday 6 September 2008

Better Life

Have you ever thought that
You would fall in love
But you'll never know
What's the reason

When you had realised that
You've fall way too deep
There's no way getting back
Until the end

I'm trying to forget you
I will feel a lot of pain
At last I did it and let go
To live a better life

Please let me say a story
About a little girl
Who had fell in love
With one cute guy
She spent all her time thinking
Whether he'll like her back
She's been suffering
All the time

She's trying to forget him
She will feel a lot of pain
At last she did it and let go
To live a better life

Friday 5 September 2008

Moody Day

Today i saw my trial one result is quite sad only 3a and it was not my target actually..I don even reach my target and i din expect got any c and wat is the result it comes out 2c eh haiz...Maybe some of u will said my target is too high but if u don have any target do u aim for it i think sure NO la...Because i am that kind of person ba haha...Don knw why today mood quite not well reach sch jiu straight away take out book and study sej le until sc period do science diagnostik test then went down to the lab and watch satelite movie abt sc la not that satelite at ur home oh...After jiu go pj lo play badminton to fa xie lo play play play until half 2 of my friends din use the place already ba so me and the friend i playing with move towards the place lo and then play few seconds,shuttlecocks drop i went and get it and another 2of my friends while playing badminton otherside of me come and take that place u say i will bu shuang ma and that time i was not in a good mood also and I ask her why take my place she said that got write ur name meh???Then i say ni bu yao lo xiao but i get the place first jiu like this is the 1 time i scold her...If she din say that maybe i will not so angry about that u vry ge si meh???sao...I am quite angry..:(

Thursday 4 September 2008

~FRIENDS FOREVER~

A Friend...is a tissue when you can't stop crying
A Friend...is a shoulder when you feel like dying
A Friend...always listens when you havesomething to say
A Friend...is a week when you need a day
A Friend...is a crutch when you have a brokenheart
A Friend...is some glue when everything falls apart
A Friend...is a sun when the rain just won't stopA Friend...is your'mom when you run into a cop
A Friend...is a phone call when you can't leaveyour home
A Friend...is a hand when you feel all alone
A Friend...is a wing if you want to fly
A Friend...understands without knowing why
A Friend...is an ear for a secret to tell
A Friend...is an aspirin when your head hurts likehell
A Friend...is a love that can never let go
A Friend... is you,and i wanted you to know!!
Friendship Forever!

PMR is nearer and nearer!!!

NOW the days towards PMR juz left not more then 39days is quite nearer and i am already get reAdy to face the PMR exam..Although i am not sure that i am going to get straight A's but i will try my best to archieve it..I should put more effort in study le less messaging,onlining chatting..I should use all the extra time to study but don worry dear i will try to arrange my time when i am free to accompancy u and ur birthday is coming but i cant celebrate ur birthday bcz i am having my trial quite sad but i wont forget ur present haha...Anyway take k urself..Have a nice day...~Wu$huG@L~GO GO GO!!!!jia you jia you...:)

Wednesday 3 September 2008

TIRED TIRED TIRED...

2DAY our class come a new is to replace our "pregnant teacher''sao ah tat math teacher so lo xiao de oh ask us wat mean whole num and integer me was the 1 person who been called by her sao ah so unlucky de...Maths don knw ask meaning de ho juz calculating ho so lo xiao for wat ask us do the stupid workbook that we never do sot ah wheregot time to do tat liao now is the to do the pmr model paper liao la waste the time nia..Why our class so always so unlucky de don have a good math teacher that we wish like "sao bao"3d student sure know this right???haha...Start frm today our math class will be a hell class wont be the free class already sao ah...几lo xiao一下。。欠大的哦。。Tired also i haven finished puan zakinah gave us de homework so much ah whole book must finish but i just do until chapter 4 nia hope tmr can finish if not li yin die lo like today lo tat stupid "lo xiao teacher"..不要得罪到我哦。。shit ah...haha...anyway i am so tired faster finish PMR our class planning to go kk after PMR haha..hope it is success lo haha..Pooh pooh sis don sad le sorry i cant do anything to let u don sad i juz can say forget about it tmr will be a new day,new thing haha...Don sad i also been caned is by our sch principal i also angry but nvm la dou happened le wat u can say juz forget about it lo..Be happy ya..I don want c mine lo xiao jie sad oh...If ur hand painful i help u sayng sayang haha...try ur best for ur next trial don give up...Ur lo xiao mei mei will always support u de...:)night..

Tuesday 2 September 2008

haiz

Haiz if i din go for concert ntg will happened..i juz feel sorry to my friend....sorry i cant do anything..wat i know i already told i din keep anything frm u sorry ya...nowadays gonna ANTI ONLINE le haha anyway take k concentrate study better jia you...

Monday 1 September 2008

爱,为什么那么痛苦

每个人说你喜欢
但为什么我却感觉不到呢
我很想从你嘴中得到一个答案
如果我们是相爱的,就是好结局
如果我是一厢情愿,至少我知道
要如何放手,不再受伤害
如果我们是有缘无份
最多我记得有你这个人
说真的,我是不会忘记你
因为你曾经是我的一部份你也曾经在我心中占有了一个地位
是没人可以去代替的
别人问我为什么爱他
我犹豫了很久
因为我不知道为什么
到了我放弃他的那一天
我才明白
我爱他不是因为我一时冲动
我爱他不是因为他很帅
我爱他也不是因为他很聪明
我爱他因为他是他
当我说我放弃你时
我到如今还是深爱着你
但是我知道一厢情愿是个很愚蠢的行为
我才下定决心说放弃
每一晚,我就会为你哭
你是否明白
我流下的每一滴眼泪都是为了你
如果你是对我有意思的话
就做点行动
不要再让我白白的为你而哭
如果你对我没什么的话
就谢谢你对我的关心吧

Monday 29 September 2008

Sorry ya....

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 10:04:00 pm 3 comments
Nowadays busy with study maybe will not replying u all de msg so don angry me ya not don wan hiu u all juz wan concentrate study pmr coming soon le need study study study very very hard le so all my friends muz pray for me ya...Friends told me that prayer is useful so i hope that all of u can pray for me thx....

Sunday 28 September 2008

sao ah...

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 12:39:00 pm 3 comments
Don knw why this morning wake up feel like got mood wan study but study study until half stomachache then go toilet le after that back frm toilet like whole people no mood eh..And until now still stomach very painful don knw is gastric or wat ah make dao me no mood study de so angry...STUPID DE...SHIT SHIT..My trial maths get 72 want kill people ah left 3 math can get a le ah..........................................................................ANGRY AH ANGRY AH...............................................I so hope i don wan to knew it haiz.....sad ah......last time is science left 3 mark can get b now maths left 3 mark can get a.....HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ....

Friday 26 September 2008

A short love story..^^

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 2:51:00 pm 0 comments
He met her on a party. She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, while he so normal, nobody paid attention to him.

At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised, but due to being polite, she promised.

They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, she thought, please, let me go home.... suddenly he asked the waiter. 'would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee.'

Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red, but still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it.

She asked him curiously; why you have this hobby?

He replied: 'when I was a little boy, I was living near the sea, I like playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there'.

While saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched.

That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart.

A man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home.

Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family.

That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story.

They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets all her demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful. He was such a good person but she almost missed him!

Thanks to his salty coffee!

Then the story was just like every beautiful love story , the princess married to the prince, then they were living the happy life... And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee e, as she knew that's the way he liked it.

After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said: 'My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life lie. This was the only lie I said to you---the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead.I never thought that could be the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything.. Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth: I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste.. But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life. If I can live for the second time, still want to know you and have you for my whole life,even though I have to drink the salty coffee again'.

Her tears made the letter totally wet.Someday, someone asked her: what's the taste of salty coffee?

It's sweet. She replied.

Love is
Not 2 forget but 2 forgive,
Not 2 c but 2 understand,
Not 2 hear but 2 listen,
Not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!!

Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like,
because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.

Haha finish trial lo...

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 1:38:00 pm 6 comments
Haha finally finished trial 2night can sleep well le then tmr gonna start study again le...Wow haha juz now while waiting my bro i take some stupid pic haha...take a look...Zzzzzz^^Sorry ya i din go get honey frm you bai fei ur xin yi sorry sorry...

Been edit le..haha^^













Thursday 25 September 2008

~B3!nG back Y!n~

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 7:00:00 pm 1 comments
Yeah i being back myself not sitting exam with the brain is blank le...I find out why my brain is blank le...Haha^^Today i told dear last few days my voice was down bcz tat day competition lead them shout jia you shout too much le..Haha luckily i told her if not she kill me if i din told her i think she got angry a while juz now while i told her but her mouth say don have heart sure got de la....anyway don angry lo i will take k myself wont let myself get sick tis is my promise...^^haha...Haha make dao my voice like boy haha..My junior say my voice was cool haha..Weird haha...Wow i realise that my sis was so k about me eh, few days also i told her my voice was gone she told me go drink honey n i never drink tat kind of thing then today she told me tat she bought honey for me eh haha...Rayu her mom to buy eh me feel dao a bit paiseh ah...Actually u can not nid buy de lo jiu dou i drink a lot of water jiu can recover le don worry...^^Wow tmr last day trial lo time pass very fast le PMR around the corner le wow Form3 life gonna end very fast lo....Haha

Wednesday 24 September 2008

Happy brithday!

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 10:13:00 am 0 comments
Sorry cannot pei u go out celebrate ur bithday but anyway i wish u have a very happy birthday!!!lao yi shui le don so naughty le hope u like i gave u de present...^^

Tuesday 23 September 2008

~My brain is blank~

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 6:47:00 pm 0 comments
haiz i don knw why 2day is the second trial le ah still the same condition while
i sit for the exam for the first day for trial my brain is blank although i study
don knw why???I wan angry ah how ah if continue like tat
this time exam sure like shit...Sis said my heart is not in study le
why will like tat le???I am finding the way to solve it oh haiz.....
I thinking of wat oh...EXAM LE should think exam thing ba...SIENZ AH..
WHAT I THINK OH??This few day so lazy to c dao my phone also it got msg or not..
I rather to throw my phone aside don k whether got battery or not...
I juz take it as my alarm clock lazy to msg oh...haiz tell me wat am i thinking...

Monday 22 September 2008

mY T3AM

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 9:06:00 pm 0 comments

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 8:57:00 pm 4 comments
I thx u very much while i am not in a good mood 2 days ago bcz the competition and nervous about it but you r the one who stay beside me and an wei me...But the person i wan it to stay beside me din give me any response and u r the 1 person i told when i am not in a good mood tat day...Tat day my mood was very very down but the next day i am so weird le warm up alone,also warming exercise doing alone bcz i bu shuang ba...but the last event i had done my best and she lose to me o.5 mark i am quite happy but also don why so happy haha...Anyway i thx my sis very much...Support me while i am in a battle,no matter what thing also always stay beside me and support me..Sorry i have make u worry and i know i am not HOPELESS~

我会好好的

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 8:48:00 pm 0 comments
我会好好的

我坐在电脑前
冷风吹啊吹
我。。。
什么都感觉不到

呆呆的坐在那儿
风把我头发吹乱了
我。。。
什么也不想知道

冷风吹啊吹
难道你能够吹走我的悲伤吗
难道你能够吹干我的眼泪吗难道我还可以像以前那么开心,那么天真吗

难道我已经变了
难道我不是以前的我了
难道我不想再受伤害了
难道我已放弃了

我悄悄的看着我的父母
十年前的他们和十年后的他们
到底改变了多少
我已不再了解他们了

到了如今我才发现
我不会像以前那么脆弱
我不会像以前那么天真
我不会像以前那么笨蛋

我跟我自己做了一个约定
不再流泪,不再责怪他人
不再想无聊的东西
我只会好好的过日子

还是深爱着你

为什么我还是放不下
我对你的感情
虽然我已放弃
我还会偶尔想念你
我很希望可以离开这个伤心地
去别的地方从新生活
但是我会在心里默默念
我深爱的还是你


~eating KFC at conference room~^^

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 2:07:00 pm 0 comments
Haha today after sch wushu team go conference and eat KFC oh mr.phang is juz for our jiang li haha...Everyone one set eat dao me so full want become fat le haha...


~MY junior~


~My bro~

~My team~



~Eating time~




~Lee ling n me~

~Bry@n n me~



~Joyce n me~


~kimberly n me~


~cheng n yin~

~W3i n Y1n~

Sunday 21 September 2008

~Ntg is impossible at least u work hard~Chung hua win at the last hehe...

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 5:11:00 pm 0 comments
Yeah we finally did it chung hua get overall champion and win riam sch haha...and i also did it i get 3 gold also din let my sis shi wang haha..thx for ur support...Wushu team u all have done ur best:)...
My junior and !

My bro and !

~Overall champion~


~Our trophy~


~CH WUSHU TEAM~


~Our trophy 2~

~boulevard time~


~My champion trophy~

Tmr i trial wish for me ya no time study jor hope my result is good...Oh ya my dear gonna birthday wish dear happy birthday first...^^









































































Saturday 20 September 2008

thx..

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 10:00:00 pm 0 comments
I won so easily give up de if not not wushugal le right haha...Anyway i juz fa xie juz now haha don worry me la...Wah 2day shout dao my throat want explode le eh like no voice le tmr still need shout erm...i will jia you de....Life still got long way to go...cannot bcz one failure give up all the thing u never try u never know so cannot give up so easily ya...CHUNG HUA JIA YOU JIA YOU...

~HOPELESS~

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 8:08:00 pm 3 comments
HOPELESS


~WU$HUg@l~hopeless~

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 7:34:00 pm 2 comments
For me this time competition is reli cannot c ah although i take 2 gold haiz din been choose but lose to me de peo been choosen u say i will bu shuang ma but if this time din been choose i gonna stop wushu forever le waste to much time le mon trial i haven study yet juz bcz want help sch to get the overall champion from now on riam win us one mark eh haiz we get 158 riam get 159
haiz tmr still got last event gonna pray hard for me ya..Thanks everyone....Reli HOPELESS..I am reli sad when i know that i wanna cry out but i stand for it din cry i juz close my eyes think tat i am hopeless le no chance le...so forget it le....

Thursday 18 September 2008

~Pray for me ya guys...~

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 8:43:00 pm 1 comments
I am having competition tmr hope i can get gold medals back my target 3gold medals so i aim for it so all of u must pray for me ya i long time din train le i think got 1 month i din train le so a bit scare my skill will not good eh but ~Wushugal~is always the best so i do my best Pray for me...God bless me!!:)

~Very Touching Story!!~

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 8:43:00 pm 1 comments
Miracles do not happen in contradiction with nature, but in contradiction with what we know about nature Saint Augustine I was an intern in pediatrics, fresh out of medical school. A lot of facts and figures were crammed into my brain, but my clinical experience was somewhat limited. But that's what it means to be an intern. One of my most memorable first patients was a young lady named Karen. She had been referred to our city hospital from a small community in North Carolina because of symptoms of weakness and anemia. I knew when I first met Karen that I was dealing with someone out of the ordinary. She was not the least intimidated by the title "Doctor" or the white coat, and she always spoke what was on her mind.

During our first interview, Karen wanted to know my credentials down to a tee, and wanted me to know that she knew that I was, indeed, "just" an intern. She was fourteen years old and full of life. Unfortunately, our evaluations revealed that she had a type of leukemia that was somewhat unusual, and not as responsive to different treatment modalities as were other types of leukemia. In fact, the prognosis for her surviving even one year was unlikely. Chemotherapy was initiated, and Karen was never shy in telling us how sick we were making her with the medicine. She never spoke in a mean way, but simply in a way that always made her feelings known. If we had difficulty with an IV she would readily point out our incompetence. However, she would just as readily forgive us and compliment us when an IV was maintained in her fragile veins on the first try. Remarkably, within three months Karen went into remission, becoming free of her disease. She continued to come in for routine chemotherapy. During those short visits, Karen and I became friends. It was almost uncanny how, during random rotations, I would turn up as her physician. Always when she would see me coming, she'd gasp, "Oh no, do I have to have Dr. Brown?" Sometimes she was kidding, sometimes she wasn't, but she always wanted me to hear her.

About a year after her original diagnosis, her disease returned. When this type of leukemia returns, it is almost impossible to regain remission because all of the therapeutic modalities have already been spent. However, once again-remarkably if not miraculously-Karen went into remission. I was now a second-year resident, a little more competent and quite a bit more attached to this family. I continued to see Karen and her family over the next year and a half. She proceeded in her high school career and remained an outspoken, fun-loving teenager. I was now in my chief residency year, spending my last month on the inpatient ward prior to completing my training. Karen came in once again with an exacerbation of her disease; she was extremely ill. There was involvement of every organ of her body, including her brain, and literally no other chemical agent to be tried. There was nothing we could do. Karen was made comfortable, given IV fluids and medication for pain. After long discussions, Karen's doctors and family decided that the goal would be to keep her comfortable and pain-free. No unnecessary heroic measures would be performed to prolong the inevitable. In fact, there were no heroic measures left. Karen soon slipped into a coma. After viewing the CT scan and seeing the diffuse brain involvement, it was easy to see why. We expected each day to be her last. Her eyes were fixed and no responsive, her breathing shallow. Her heart was still strong, as we knew it would be. However, the disease was ravaging her blood system and brain, and there was evidence of opportunistic pneumonia involving both lungs. We knew that she would soon die.

I began to have a tremendous dread of Karen dying while I was on call. I did not want to pronounce her dead. It came to the point where I hoped that her death would come on nights that I was away from the hospital because I feared that I would not be any emotional support for the family, or that I would even be able to perform my duties as a physician. This family had come to mean so much to me. It was a Wednesday night, and Karen had been in a coma for four days. I was the chief resident on call for the wards. I spoke with the family and peeked in on Karen. I noticed her breathing was very shallow and her temperature quite low. Death could be imminent. I selfishly hoped to myself that maybe she'd wait until tomorrow to die. I went about my chores until about 3:00 A.M., when I finally tried to get some sleep. At 4:00 A.M. I received a STAT page to Karen's room. This puzzled me somewhat because we were not going to make any heroic interventions. Nevertheless, I ran to her room. The nurse greeted me outside the room and grabbed my arm. "Karen wants to talk to you." I literally thought this nurse was crazy. I couldn't imagine what she was talking about-Karen was in a coma. At this point in my life, my scientific, Newtonian way of thinking ruled my thoughts, primarily because this is the approach we are trained in day in and day out in medical school. I had neglected other, more important spiritual aspects of my being, ignoring the instinct that knows what reason cannot know. I went into the room, and to my amazement, Karen was sitting up in bed.

Her mother was on the left side of the bed, her father on the right. I stood next to the father, not saying anything, not knowing what to say. Karen's eyes, which had been glazed over for four days, were now clear and sharp. She simply stated, "God has come for me. It is time for me to go." She then went around to each of us at the bedside and hugged us tightly, one at a time. These were strong hugs, hugs that I kept thinking were impossible. I could only visualize her CT scan and the severe degree of brain damage. How could this be? Then Karen lay down. But she popped back up immediately, as if she had forgotten something. She went around the bed to each of us again, with her penetrating eyes fixing our stares. No hugs this time. But her hands were strong and steady, squeezing our shoulders as she spoke. "God is here," she said. "Do you see him? Do you know him?" I was scared. Nothing in my experience could explain what was happening here. There was nothing else to say, so I mumbled, "Yes. Good-bye. Thank you." I didn't know what to say. The entire time, I kept visualizing that CT scan. Then Karen lay back down and died-or I should say, she quit breathing and her heart stopped. Her powerful spirit went on living. It was years before I could tell that story, even to my wife. I still cannot tell it without feeling overwhelming emotions. I know now that this experience is not something to be understood through the limited viewpoint of the scientific realm. We are, in essence, spiritual beings in a spiritual universe, not primarily governed by Newton's laws, but by the laws of God.

~Maybe i have make a wrong choice~

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 8:43:00 pm 0 comments
Maybe i am not suitable to make the choice but i had make it..So i cant do anything now if u all think is suitable for u all to do like this nevermind is ok juz go on i never de jiu dang i lose one friends erm...U will never how hard to hold a pose de and that is wushu club is not easy to hold it wushu want prefect no matter wat performance or competition our chung hua wushu club always want to be the best among the best...So i holding this jawatan is not easy it can interrupt my studies de..I need to care two side like coach and sch not like u holding a pose in leo club juz easy easy like tat wan do jiu do jiu do lo don wan jiu don wan lo..Mine is not same i have been quarrel many times with president because some reason and i have learn thing from him but anyway i juz can say sorry...CHUNG HUA WUSHU CLUB MEMBER JIA YOU!!!My team i want see gold medals ya as many gold medals as u all can...:)I will go watch you all tmr wakaka be prepared for it oh...haha..:)

Wednesday 17 September 2008

~I reli no choice le~So i choose the last choice..~

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 6:12:00 pm 0 comments
Sorry friends i knew i promise u guys go curtin but 我也是很难做人啊...我做中间人啊...go there also will hurt dao someone din go also will hurt dao someone haiz...I reli hard to choose so recess time i went to find bryan talk about wushu competition thing and he told me at least go to talk with the china coach and i already promise my friends gonna go curtin for leo telematch how???So while i am the way back to class i have decide it i cancel my telmatch and go for wushu competition but din join la juz go c nia...ERM if i go telmatch i don have time to study le..So i arrange my time to go on fri the wushu competition and sat gonna study..So sorry friends not i blame u all juz i hard to decide maybe my decide make u all bu shuang sorry ya...

Tuesday 16 September 2008

~对不起~

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 10:17:00 pm 0 comments
对不起,我没有参与这次的比赛。。不关你们怎样的劝我结果的答案还是一样的。不要再懒费时间再问我了...我的决定是不会再改变的!!!不关你们再怎样...把你们拿去练习吧拿一个好成绩给我不要因为没有我的存在,而把比赛比的不好...你们觉得我能陪你们到永远的一起比赛吗???不可能...现在是给你们应该学习的机会,学一下没有我的存在而好好的比赛...不要因为你跟我同一个项目而每次拿金牌的是我,而已当我参与的时后你会觉得你赢得很不光荣那是错的...这次是你们很好的机会表现下你们这几年来的苦练,表现下给中国教练看好让你们有机会被选去外面比赛..你们不是等很久了啊现在不是有机会了啊好好去吧握这次的机会...不关廉中的人这样看那你们应该要做的比他们更好...在比赛场地上不关多好的朋友都是你的对手,没有让来让去的...我对我自己走武术这条路以经死心,没有希望了!!!能的话打进国家队,那是我练武术以来的约望可是不可能会实现的我信永远都不会实现的...我要走的路以经不是武术了...武术的路不是哪么好走的我放弃了...好好的加油吧...!!!我下个星期要考试了..pray for me...很快的我要考PMR有点不想考更本就没有信心...给我信心吧...:)

Monday 15 September 2008

爱与不爱....只在于你的心....

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 1:42:00 pm 0 comments
能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎?
這個男孩太傻,為了一個不愛自己的人付出那麼多!
....現在應該很少這種人嚕..若他就在你身邊的話..記得珍惜他..
曾在女孩的記憶中,有那麼一個人。
「我現在喜歡的人,就是我前面的這位啦!」男孩大聲的說著,指著走在他前頭的女孩。
「神經病!」女孩嘀咕著,快速走開那群跟著起鬨的人群,只當男孩拿她開玩笑。
直到某一天,女孩收到了一封信。
『我是真的喜歡妳!我可以為妳做任何事,只要妳喜欢,我都會去做。
一封信就這樣,沒有署名,短短幾句話,但女孩卻知道是男孩寫的。
『那你能現在跳到馬路中央嗎? 』
女孩在信紙背面寫上這句話,託人交給男孩。
「我能!妳看著。」男孩看了內容,當著她的面衝進馬路中央。
只聽見震聾欲耳的喇叭聲、刺耳的煞車聲、巨大的碰撞聲,以及映入女孩眼簾倒在血泊中的男孩。
「我真的能為妳做任何事......」男孩的話救護車高亢的呼聲中,依舊清楚的傳入女孩耳中。
「是你們家的女兒要我們家的孩子衝進馬路中被車撞的!」「胡說!明明是你們家的兒子自己衝進去的!」
「什麼胡說!他同學說的你們不是也聽見了嗎?我們家的孩子是看了你們女兒的信才衝進去的!」
「真的是這樣嗎?」女孩的母親回頭看著女孩。
「嗯。」女孩點了頭,淚水也在她低下頭的瞬間,滴上了那張寫著男孩與她的字的信紙,似乎也企圖抹殺掉發生的事實。
「你看吧!你們要怎麼賠我兒子的人生!他再也不能打籃球了......」男孩的母親歇斯底里的大喊,哭倒在醫院冷硬的地板上。「這......」女孩的父母無言。
「我要你們的女兒陪著我的兒子,直到他再也不需要她的時候,這是你們女兒欠我們的!」男孩的父親說。
「不行!她不愛你兒子啊!你不能那麼自私!」女孩的母親不捨女孩受這種罪。
「好,我會陪著他。」在眾人驚訝的目光中,女孩答應了。

-------------------------兩年後------------------------

在公園的躺椅上,男孩和女孩靜靜的坐著,輕柔的風撫過他們疲憊的心。「為什麼喜歡我?」女孩開口了。
「能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎?喜歡上了,愛上了,就是了。」男孩淡淡的說。
「如果有一天我有喜歡的人了,你會放我走嗎?」女孩說。
「我從來沒有綁住過妳,是妳自己不放自己走的。」男孩說。
沒有交談了,只有風吹動落葉的颯颯聲。
男孩說對了,兩年前在他醒來後,他就解除了約定,但女孩始終將自己綁在男孩身邊,她愧疚,因為她的一句玩笑話,毀了男孩的夢,男孩再也不能打籃球了。
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然而故事卻不會永遠都是好結局,女孩的心給了另一個人,沒有給肯為她付出一切的男孩。
「你為什麼當初要聽我的話!你怎麼那麼笨!」女孩跪倒在地上哭泣。
「我......只是愛妳。」男孩說,伸手想將女孩扶起。
「我不要你的愛!」女孩甩開男孩的手。
「你的愛太強烈,害慘了我,你知不知道啊!你知不知道啊!」女孩歇斯底里的哭喊著。
「我......」男孩說不出話來。
「為什麼是我!為什麼是我!你為什要愛上我!我討厭你這樣!我討厭!討厭!」女孩用盡所有力氣大聲嘶吼,轉身跑了出去。
女孩的愧疚太深,她沒辦法打開心結,她因為責任而留在男孩身邊,直到她喜歡上別人了,她再也不能忍受不能和喜歡的人在一起的日子,所以她崩潰了,然而也傷了男孩的心。
女孩使勁的跑,用力的跑,淚水模糊她的視線,心中的煩亂讓她沒看對她迎面駛來的卡車......
「小心!」伴隨著警告,有人推開了她。
熟悉的碰撞聲響起,再一次,女孩回頭看,再一次的看見倒在殷紅的血泊中。
「我真的能為妳做任何事......」男孩說,嘔出一口血,昏了過去。
「不要!」女孩受不了再一次的刺激,她尖叫,
使盡所有力氣的尖叫。「太遲了,肋骨插進內臟,內出血止不住,沒救了。」
「那麼年輕就......難道真的沒辦法了嗎?」
醫院裡的人議論紛紛,句句傳入女孩的耳中,她的淚水決提,濕了她的襯衫。
如果她當初能理智一點就不會發生了,如果男孩不要愛上她就好了,她哭,哭的歇斯底里,因為這次男孩真的要離開她了,他現在只能等待死亡。
「我想妳應該進去看他......」男孩的父親說,他的悲痛清楚的寫在臉上。
「好......」女孩語不成聲,她只能不停的流淚。
女孩進了病房,見到男孩蒼白的臉,她淚水流的更兇。
「不要哭......」男孩心疼的舉手擦拭女孩的淚。
「你好傻......」女孩哭個不停。
「或許吧......這個給妳......」男孩張開緊握的手,一封沾了血的信。
「這是最後一封了,好好的看好嗎?」男孩說,眼角留下一滴淚。
「好......」女孩接下那封信,清澈的淚水滴在信封上,混著暗紅乾涸的血。
「我真的能為妳做任何事......」
這是男孩的最後一句話,他再也不能待在女孩身邊,他走了,女孩昏了過去。
『給最愛的妳:
愛上妳,多半是痛苦,我知道妳的心永遠不會交給我,可是我還是好愛好愛妳......
當初如果知道我的行為會讓妳無法自由的飛,我不會去做。
妳知道嗎?只要妳高興,我真的能為妳做任何事。
我知道當妳看這封信時,妳已經有喜歡的人了,放自己自由好嗎?

不要在強迫自己留在我身邊,我希望妳能活的快乐。

不要問我為什麼那麼傻。能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎?喜歡上了,愛上了,就是了。
我會一直守護著妳,因為妳是我最愛的人,我真的能為妳做任何事,不管過了多少年,我都不曾改變。』
女孩收起了信,她的淚水已經不再流下,男孩離開她已經五年了,五年的時光也讓她從一個年輕的女孩蛻變為成熟的女人。
女孩的命,是男孩救的,但女孩的心,自始自終都不曾落在男孩身上。
『能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎?喜歡上了,愛上了,就是了。』

在蔚藍的天空裡,風裡似乎帶來男孩的低語。

女孩不能選擇,男孩也不能選擇,谁都不能選擇。

~:(today been scolded by friend..~

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 1:23:00 pm 2 comments
Haha today while i am doing my geografi workbook,i don knw how to do ba..Ask those who knw how to do de teach me lo..After finished doing first set many wrong ba then my friends scold me lo bcz some i circle the wrong answer,and scold me "YOU GOT READ FINISHED THE QUESTION DE MA??sure no de then straight away do so funny eh...Then she doing sej after she tick i also saw that she also got many wrong then i scold her "You also din read ur question de so many wrong"then she said u got refer book i don ho...I cant say anything liao...haha..She want me to do one set without asking peo do my own then tmr she want c cannot less than 40 correct...Haha must do carefully later liao if not i goona die haha...I knw is for my own good who ask me my geo not good le...thx ya..:)

Sunday 14 September 2008

对你的承诺~^o^~

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 4:42:00 pm 0 comments
我对你的承诺会是永远的
不管我在哪里
当你需要我时
我一定会在你的身边
管我有多忙
我都会陪着你
至到你不会伤心为止
不管你是伤心
是高兴
我都会永远在你身边的...^O^

我会永远在你身边

当你需要肩膀时

我会把我的肩膀让你靠

当你需要拥抱时

我会紧紧地抱着

我不会让任何人欺负你的

不会让你掉一滴眼泪....^___^


我要你开开心心的过每一天
永远没烦恼^-^

Saturday 13 September 2008

~Reality~

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 12:53:00 pm 0 comments
Reality...
It hurts so much
It's like a physical pain
The pain that you can't explain in words

Reality...

It is always that cruel
It never contain lies
And the truth is unbearable

Reality...

Is when you cry
And nobodys there to comfort you
Or even to wipe your tears

Reality...

Is when you face the world yourself,
Is when you are alone
And when you were being abadoned by everyone

When you can't face that reality anymore

You start living in shadows, in darkness
And let the imagination feeds on you
Until one day, someone save you

You will realised that the reality that you lived in years ago

Is much more friendly than now
The despair, the coldness and the hopelessReality...



Friday

Friday...

The day that used to be my favourite day
The day that means I would have to wait before seeing you again
The day that I am happy

Friday...

The day that I'm lonely
The day that everybody ignores me
The day that you are not here

Friday...

I love you, I hate you
You played with my feelings
Yet, I still wanted to hear from you

Friday...

I want you to go, I want you to stay
My request has never been fufilled
Because Friday had to come every once a week



Until Death Do We Part

I never know that I would fall for you

And when I've realised that, I'm soaring high in the air
The feeling of love is just too powerful to describe
It lightens my days with bright sunshine

I never know that falling in love would be that wonderful

All the lies would mean nothing to me
Even the sunlight could pierce through the cold darkness
And warmed my heart like an ice cream melted during the summertime

I never thought that giving up would be that sorrowful

The despair feeling is like a sinking Titanic
My heart felt like being tied up by a heavy stone
And it pulled me down deep, into the bottomless, dark and never ending despair

Now I've thought of it and I know

For all these time I've been a fool
To love you with all my heart
But to know that you didn't care at all

And as I'm writing my feelings out everynight

As my heart is bleeding inside while I'm crying on the outsideI
would never forget about you
For you were once a person of my concern
And the one in my heart that I thought no one could've replace

As I stand here and think back

I am smiling foolishly as I thought
That you actually cared for me
And I wanted to tell you that I will always love you
Until death do we part

Wednesday 10 September 2008

WHO ARE YOU???

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 3:58:00 pm 0 comments
Please tell me who are you???i don like to guess..Maybe i call you dear bcz i thought u is my best friends so please tell me who are u if no then nvm bye then...Annoymous who are you??If i know who are u i won forgive you le...

Monday 8 September 2008

SAD SAD SAD....

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 8:48:00 pm 0 comments
wHY is always not the right time the china coach come haiz...Why he come during the time i wan PMR n i will miss this chance again to go competition outside i am very angry and sad...haiz...and no chance to correct my mistake haiz very sad eh..Is not very easy to be choosen by the china coach ah and i so hope i can been train by the china caoch i will sure be pro not bcz i wan pro but i wan to be more cool haha...no la jk jk...juz wan improve my wushu skill haiz haiz...Miss competition,miss china coach coming to miri to comment me haiz...Actually want me give up wushu is not so easy la haiz...SAD SAD SAD....I miss this chance again i miss this chance twice ah..haiz....:(

PMR

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 6:18:00 pm 0 comments
pMR cannot play lo haiz juz leave 4weeks le a bit nervous le haiz how ho???Don knw wat is the feeling when u sit in the class for PMR exam ho haha cannot think le haha..nvm la i will work hard no matter how haha....

Sunday 7 September 2008

~Wu$hug@l~

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 10:49:00 pm 0 comments



~For my friends~

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 12:03:00 pm 12 comments

For my jie jie de...^^

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 11:59:00 am 0 comments















Saturday 6 September 2008

Better Life

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 7:55:00 pm 0 comments
Have you ever thought that
You would fall in love
But you'll never know
What's the reason

When you had realised that
You've fall way too deep
There's no way getting back
Until the end

I'm trying to forget you
I will feel a lot of pain
At last I did it and let go
To live a better life

Please let me say a story
About a little girl
Who had fell in love
With one cute guy
She spent all her time thinking
Whether he'll like her back
She's been suffering
All the time

She's trying to forget him
She will feel a lot of pain
At last she did it and let go
To live a better life

Friday 5 September 2008

Moody Day

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 8:43:00 pm 4 comments
Today i saw my trial one result is quite sad only 3a and it was not my target actually..I don even reach my target and i din expect got any c and wat is the result it comes out 2c eh haiz...Maybe some of u will said my target is too high but if u don have any target do u aim for it i think sure NO la...Because i am that kind of person ba haha...Don knw why today mood quite not well reach sch jiu straight away take out book and study sej le until sc period do science diagnostik test then went down to the lab and watch satelite movie abt sc la not that satelite at ur home oh...After jiu go pj lo play badminton to fa xie lo play play play until half 2 of my friends din use the place already ba so me and the friend i playing with move towards the place lo and then play few seconds,shuttlecocks drop i went and get it and another 2of my friends while playing badminton otherside of me come and take that place u say i will bu shuang ma and that time i was not in a good mood also and I ask her why take my place she said that got write ur name meh???Then i say ni bu yao lo xiao but i get the place first jiu like this is the 1 time i scold her...If she din say that maybe i will not so angry about that u vry ge si meh???sao...I am quite angry..:(

Thursday 4 September 2008

~FRIENDS FOREVER~

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 7:25:00 pm 0 comments
A Friend...is a tissue when you can't stop crying
A Friend...is a shoulder when you feel like dying
A Friend...always listens when you havesomething to say
A Friend...is a week when you need a day
A Friend...is a crutch when you have a brokenheart
A Friend...is some glue when everything falls apart
A Friend...is a sun when the rain just won't stopA Friend...is your'mom when you run into a cop
A Friend...is a phone call when you can't leaveyour home
A Friend...is a hand when you feel all alone
A Friend...is a wing if you want to fly
A Friend...understands without knowing why
A Friend...is an ear for a secret to tell
A Friend...is an aspirin when your head hurts likehell
A Friend...is a love that can never let go
A Friend... is you,and i wanted you to know!!
Friendship Forever!

PMR is nearer and nearer!!!

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 12:59:00 pm 0 comments
NOW the days towards PMR juz left not more then 39days is quite nearer and i am already get reAdy to face the PMR exam..Although i am not sure that i am going to get straight A's but i will try my best to archieve it..I should put more effort in study le less messaging,onlining chatting..I should use all the extra time to study but don worry dear i will try to arrange my time when i am free to accompancy u and ur birthday is coming but i cant celebrate ur birthday bcz i am having my trial quite sad but i wont forget ur present haha...Anyway take k urself..Have a nice day...~Wu$huG@L~GO GO GO!!!!jia you jia you...:)

Wednesday 3 September 2008

TIRED TIRED TIRED...

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 10:20:00 pm 3 comments
2DAY our class come a new is to replace our "pregnant teacher''sao ah tat math teacher so lo xiao de oh ask us wat mean whole num and integer me was the 1 person who been called by her sao ah so unlucky de...Maths don knw ask meaning de ho juz calculating ho so lo xiao for wat ask us do the stupid workbook that we never do sot ah wheregot time to do tat liao now is the to do the pmr model paper liao la waste the time nia..Why our class so always so unlucky de don have a good math teacher that we wish like "sao bao"3d student sure know this right???haha...Start frm today our math class will be a hell class wont be the free class already sao ah...几lo xiao一下。。欠大的哦。。Tired also i haven finished puan zakinah gave us de homework so much ah whole book must finish but i just do until chapter 4 nia hope tmr can finish if not li yin die lo like today lo tat stupid "lo xiao teacher"..不要得罪到我哦。。shit ah...haha...anyway i am so tired faster finish PMR our class planning to go kk after PMR haha..hope it is success lo haha..Pooh pooh sis don sad le sorry i cant do anything to let u don sad i juz can say forget about it tmr will be a new day,new thing haha...Don sad i also been caned is by our sch principal i also angry but nvm la dou happened le wat u can say juz forget about it lo..Be happy ya..I don want c mine lo xiao jie sad oh...If ur hand painful i help u sayng sayang haha...try ur best for ur next trial don give up...Ur lo xiao mei mei will always support u de...:)night..

Tuesday 2 September 2008

haiz

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 10:05:00 pm 5 comments
Haiz if i din go for concert ntg will happened..i juz feel sorry to my friend....sorry i cant do anything..wat i know i already told i din keep anything frm u sorry ya...nowadays gonna ANTI ONLINE le haha anyway take k concentrate study better jia you...

Monday 1 September 2008

爱,为什么那么痛苦

Posted by ~WuShUg@L~ at 10:56:00 am 0 comments
每个人说你喜欢
但为什么我却感觉不到呢
我很想从你嘴中得到一个答案
如果我们是相爱的,就是好结局
如果我是一厢情愿,至少我知道
要如何放手,不再受伤害
如果我们是有缘无份
最多我记得有你这个人
说真的,我是不会忘记你
因为你曾经是我的一部份你也曾经在我心中占有了一个地位
是没人可以去代替的
别人问我为什么爱他
我犹豫了很久
因为我不知道为什么
到了我放弃他的那一天
我才明白
我爱他不是因为我一时冲动
我爱他不是因为他很帅
我爱他也不是因为他很聪明
我爱他因为他是他
当我说我放弃你时
我到如今还是深爱着你
但是我知道一厢情愿是个很愚蠢的行为
我才下定决心说放弃
每一晚,我就会为你哭
你是否明白
我流下的每一滴眼泪都是为了你
如果你是对我有意思的话
就做点行动
不要再让我白白的为你而哭
如果你对我没什么的话
就谢谢你对我的关心吧